I’ve been dreaming of a chicken quesadilla from Taco Bell for about four days straight now.
Four full days of craving that cheesy goodness.
So when I got off work today, I shamefully took the route home that would pass Taco Bell.
Then I saw someone running.
A random dude. That’s when it hit me.
A chicken quesadilla from Taco Bell has 530 calories.
In order to burn off those calories, I’d have to run between 5 and 6 miles.
Do you want to run six miles for that chicken quesadilla, Ashley?
That means I’d have to run for more than hour for something I can easily eat in less than 4 minutes. Maybe 3 (because I was INSANELY hungry).
“Screw that noise,” I said out loud in my car.
But then the inner fat kid in me said, “No one would have to know…just don’t write a blog tonight.”
Then I pictured the old Ashley.
|195 lb Ashley
My goal weight for the year.
The thinner Ashley.
The motivated Ashley.
|About 202 lbs|
The fitness inspired Ashley.
|About 187 lbs.|
And I thought of the beach.
And how I wanted to look good for our upcoming summer vacation.
“Even if no one else knows that you caved – you will know that you messed up…and you are most important,” I reminded myself.
I turned up the music, pushed on the accelerator and kept driving.
I fuel my emotions with food.
I eat when I’m sad.
I eat when I’m happy.
I eat when I’m stressed.
I eat when I’m bored.
But I’m trying to change my relationship with food.
And it will happen one step at time.
Speaking of steps, I started training for my fourth half marathon tonight.
I did 2 miles with an average pace of 11:32!
My last half marathon was about 13:40 or so.
My first half marathon was 14:30 something.
Maybe Sabrina and I will finish the race in under 2:45 (which has been our goal every single time).
I have a sneaky feeling this will be an amazing race for us, Bean! 🙂
So, I’m taking this one day at a time.
I am celebrating every single victory.
And soon enough. I’ll be posting pictures of the new, healthier Ashley.