Last Monday night, I cried myself to sleep.
The emotions of the day combined with the news about the devastating tornadoes were simply too much to handle.
Especially during a difficult time of year.
It’s been 10 years since I lost my grandpa.
I started to think about everything he’s missed.
|What? You didn’t have chip & dale’s at your surprise 16th birthday?|
|Big Blue – pictured here with a flat tire.|
|I miss the Gladiator van.|
|I was NOT coordinated at all.
But I made the team because I was full of spirit.
And made people smile.
|Best prom date, ever.|
No, I wasn’t a Hollister model, but thanks for asking.
Just kidding. =)
|Grandpa, I promise he treats me good. He cooks. He cleans.
He makes me laugh. He inspires me.
And he likes fishing. You would love him.
|She is the best. Don’t know what I would do without my beautiful sister.|
|The boy who captured my heart from the moment I met him.
Grandpa, he is a keeper! 🙂
|Landen, the boy who smiles and melts my heart.
Who comes running full blast into my arms when I see him.
I’d be lost without my nephews.
|Mama T & me on graduation day.
Mom is still beautiful as ever.
|Such a beautiful day.
Justin got me a heart shaped locket with your picture in it.
I put it in my bouquet.
You were close to my heart the entire day, Grandpa.
|Grandpa, we all miss you.|
|Grandpa and Grandma.
Grandpa probably said something rotten, which is why is laughing and grandma is smirking.
I wish you could go fishing with Justin.
I wish I could eat breakfast with you on Sunday mornings after church.
I wish you would sneak up behind me and rub your aftershave on my face. I know I hated it and got mad at you, but looking back – it makes me smile.
I wish I could eat oranges with you as a mid-afternoon snack.
I wish I could listen to you yell at Cub’s on TV. Maybe this will be their year 😉
I wish I could eat sauerkraut with you (I actually like it now!!).
A lot happens in 10 years.
But I know that I’ve got a lifetime ahead of me. And I can’t spend that time wishing you were here…so instead, I’ll be celebrating our memories. While I know you aren’t here with me physically, I believe you are here with me in spirit. I believe you are on my shoulder when I need you the most. When I need someone to look out for me. To guide me in the right direction. You’re there.
Miss you, always.