Last Monday night, I cried myself to sleep.
The emotions of the day combined with the news about the devastating tornadoes were simply too much to handle.
Especially during a difficult time of year.
It’s been 10 years since I lost my grandpa.
I started to think about everything he’s missed.
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| What? You didn’t have chip & dale’s at your surprise 16th birthday? |
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| Big Blue – pictured here with a flat tire. |
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| I miss the Gladiator van. |
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| I was NOT coordinated at all. But I made the team because I was full of spirit. And made people smile. |
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| Best prom date, ever. |
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| Senior picture. No, I wasn’t a Hollister model, but thanks for asking. Just kidding. =) |
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| Grandpa, I promise he treats me good. He cooks. He cleans. He makes me laugh. He inspires me. And he likes fishing. You would love him. |
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| She is the best. Don’t know what I would do without my beautiful sister. |
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| I transferred to IPFW for the Dental Assisting program that December. By January, I was already registered to go back to Ball State for my Bachelor’s in Journalism. You know me, I couldn’t make a decision to save my life. I changed my major probably 47 times. |
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| The boy who captured my heart from the moment I met him. Braxen Darrell. Grandpa, he is a keeper! 🙂 |
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| Landen, the boy who smiles and melts my heart. Who comes running full blast into my arms when I see him. I’d be lost without my nephews. |
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| Mama T & me on graduation day. Mom is still beautiful as ever. |
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| Such a beautiful day. Justin got me a heart shaped locket with your picture in it. I put it in my bouquet. You were close to my heart the entire day, Grandpa. |
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| The grandkids. |
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| Grandpa, we all miss you. |
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| Grandpa and Grandma. Grandpa probably said something rotten, which is why is laughing and grandma is smirking. |
I wish you could go fishing with Justin.
I wish I could eat breakfast with you on Sunday mornings after church.
I wish you would sneak up behind me and rub your aftershave on my face. I know I hated it and got mad at you, but looking back – it makes me smile.
I wish I could eat oranges with you as a mid-afternoon snack.
I wish I could listen to you yell at Cub’s on TV. Maybe this will be their year 😉
I wish I could eat sauerkraut with you (I actually like it now!!).
A lot happens in 10 years.
But I know that I’ve got a lifetime ahead of me. And I can’t spend that time wishing you were here…so instead, I’ll be celebrating our memories. While I know you aren’t here with me physically, I believe you are here with me in spirit. I believe you are on my shoulder when I need you the most. When I need someone to look out for me. To guide me in the right direction. You’re there.
Miss you, always.
Much love,
Ashley
Ashley Sieb 